Sometimes, for a new beginning to emerge, we must allow a cycle to reach its completion, accept the metaphorical death of our present self and, in a sense, become a ruin, in order to make space for the next stage.
Yes, this process is rarely pleasing to the human mind. We tend to see value only in growth, forgetting that every true becoming begins with the transformation of the form that came before it.
Perhaps this is why nature remains for me the truest reminder that an ending is never the opposite of a beginning. It is its beginning. Only then does space appear in which the new does not merely arise, but takes root, like the first shoots breaking through the earth after a long winter.
Such is the rhythm of existence itself, of which we are all a part. And perhaps the best thing we can do is stop resisting it. For it is precisely in trusting this natural rhythm that an ending ceases to seem like an end and becomes the beginning of a new form of life.
author: KRISTINA MARIINSKAYA
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The Pietraia artistic residency was that very ruin, heralding an inevitable renewal. It is not an object awaiting restoration, but a wise interlocutor whose ancient walls do not ask us to return them to their former grandeur. No. They speak of what they know, of what they have witnessed, of processes that do not strive forward, but inward.
Their movement is like a spiral that never returns to the same point, yet passes near it on another level, carrying the memory of every generation while at the same time holding within it the potential for another turn.
Its stones remind us of the art of remaining connected to our roots, of ancient traditions that sought answers in the radiance of the stars, of the ability to hear our own depths — something that cannot be found in haste.
Its cracks are like lines in the chronicle of life; every moss-covered stone bears witness to the fact that eternity does not arise from physical strength or resistance, but from gentleness and attunement to the cycles of birth and death, from accepting them and surrendering to them.
Some places become our teachers.
The ancient Romans called this genius loci — the spirit of a place, its invisible essence, that which makes every land unique. I like to think that every piece of land has its own voice. It does not speak in words, but in the curves of hills, in ancient trees, in stones, and in the way time leaves its traces upon them. It is as though every land carries within itself a particular knowledge, revealing it only to those who arrive not to conquer, but to enter into dialogue.
Thus, genius loci becomes the capacity of the land itself to be a teacher to those who know how to listen. And we can truly listen only when, if only temporarily, we step outside the incessant self-reflection of the mind that pulls us away from the centre — the only place where we are truly present, where we can hear.
The landscape of Roccantica and Pietraia itself revealed itself to me as such a place.
Its language is, of course, not made of words, but of rhythms.
When it wishes to tell us something important, it does so through the light slowly travelling across stone, through the wind moving among the silver leaves of the olive trees, through the silence spreading over the hills at midday, and through the stars that continue their ancient passage above Sabina each night.
Watching them, one gradually begins to understand that the deepest answers here are born not from explanations, but from the very structure of life — from being present within the silence of a moment and allowing it to envelop one’s entire being.
In nature there are no clear boundaries between ending and beginning. Nothing simply disappears without a trace; it only transforms, endlessly becoming something new. A spring shoot feeds upon fallen leaves, a fallen tree becomes a dwelling for moss and fungi, and later becomes nourishment for new roots. Everything that appears to us as an ending is, for nature, a beginning. And perhaps this is its greatest lesson.
Consider, for instance, the rocks of the Apennines. They are silent witnesses to time. For centuries they have received the wind, the rain and the burning sun, carrying within them the memory of forests, seas and ages long disappeared. We rarely consider that a mountain slope itself is born from millennia of fallen stone and the slow movement of rock.
Mountains teach us another way of perceiving time. They remind us that life does not have to accelerate and expand without interruption. Like the changing seasons and the natural cycles of all living things, we too sometimes need to slow down and allow ourselves to see life in its spectral, almost imperceptible beauty. For however fierce the storm may be outside, somewhere deep within us there is always a place where silence and peace remain — a place where that which is beyond the reach of time and destruction resides. Where our true, eternal essence dwells.
This image of continuous transformation is carried further by the olive trees among whose vast terraces Pietraia is situated. Like the limestone hills of Sabina, they have been rooted here for thousands of years, and the olive tree itself, it seems to me, is one of the most powerful symbols of this place.
Unlike most other trees, it exists beyond our habitual understanding of beginning and end. Even after five hundred years, becoming hollow and twisted, it continues to live. When the visible part of the trunk disappears, new shoots emerge from its base.
Remarkable, is it not?
An ancient olive tree truly appears as a living embodiment of perpetual transformation: while one part of it passes away, another continues its existence, reminding us that in nature there are no final endings — only the endless transformation of one form into another.
The concluding spirit of this place is the ruin — a symbol of liberation. For me, it is perhaps the most vivid embodiment of how the visible death of a form can in truth become its transformation. When a building becomes a ruin, it ceases to belong to its past. The outer shell, everything superfluous and accidental, gradually falls away, while within it space is released for something else — invisible, yet more authentic. Like an exhalation, destruction makes another breath possible, creating a space of grace in which everything can become possible once again.
The ruin seems to whisper to us: what has been lost does not need to be restored. What has been lost must be transformed into something more faithful to who we are here and now.
And so, the genius loci of this place seem to carry a secret message:
“Everything requires time,” said the mountain.
“Everything requires renewal,” continued the olive tree.
“Everything requires letting go,” concluded the ruin.
Sometimes the only way forward is to slow down, grow quiet, and allow the next stage to ripen naturally. Perhaps this is why Pietraia became a house of attention and presence — a place where time and rhythm are no longer governed by the habitual haste of everyday life. Here, time seems to slow, bringing with it silence, clarity and renewal.
This thought inevitably brings me back to the Italian Renaissance, which emerged from the ruins of the ancient world. The people of that era did not seek to restore Ancient Rome to what it had once been. Instead, they created something new, allowing the past to become a source of inspiration rather than an object of restoration.
Nature itself works in much the same way, its rhythms resonating so deeply within the human soul. Our own path, too, rarely moves in a straight line: sometimes we must allow something to end, allow spontaneity and non-linearity to enter our lives, in order to make room for what is ready to be born.
And it is precisely in such moments that nature turns our gaze towards its simple and eternal cycles, and in the breath of the wind we begin to hear a quiet, barely perceptible whisper:
“I am no longer what I was.
And it is precisely for this reason that I can become something else.”